Sleepy, Stressed, and Emotionally Confused

by Deneil Merritt on August 6, 2010

The last 3 weeks I have been lazy and feeling lost in this business. I been having mix feelings about this business. The only things I know for a fact I will never sell is this blog, my rakeback site, and my poker news site. The rest I am already preparing to sell or building up to sell. I noticed in the 3 years I been making money online. I have yet to develop a product I can bring in a steady income. I think this is part of the reason I can’t sleep all the time and being stressed out. One thing I know for sure is you can’t be successful being stressed out and sleepy.

For example, my niche mini site I plan on developing and selling. With the new article writing tool I bought instant article factory. I could pump out the 20 articles I need on the site to sell within an hour at max. Yesterday, I felt so lost I only did 2 articles. I need to find something to help me focus.

I don’t want to mess up my latest project since its so easy to do that. Like most PPC advertising my first 2 days came out a lost but I am making tweaks and seeing whats working and whats not. All this information is going to be real useful for me in the future and maybe I will release a ebook teaching others. On another note, my good friend (owner of cddhosting) and I have been in talks to develop a site to selling premium wordpress themes. Would be good to have a steady income going into my paypal account but this is something I really need to think about with a clear mind.

Ok, I been thinking about this all week. Monday I went to my ex-girlfriend house and I had a great time. She still my bestfriend but I learn that she is in love with someone else. I knew it would come sooner or later but she been in love with him for almost 8 months now. Which really bothers me because she fell in love with him around the same time we was  so call “trying to work things out”.

I mean I know we no longer together and we just not good in a relationship together but let’s face it. I am still in love with her. It’s been almost a year since we broke up and yet I truly do feel she is my soul mate, my wife to be. We just not meant to be together right now. I never mat a woman like her in life. No matter how long we don’t talk we always talk to each other like we was never apart.

Anyways, I just made this post to get things off my chest and not hold it in which is what I would normally do. If you have any thoughts on this please let me know in the comment section below.

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Elias Felix August 6, 2010 at 9:26 pm

I know exactly how you feel Deneil. Try working out, a walk in the park or even, P90X to energize yourserlf.

Regards,

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Deneil Merritt August 7, 2010 at 9:36 pm

That’s a good idea. I don’t know about the working out but going for a walk sounds relaxing.

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Dean Saliba August 7, 2010 at 6:33 am

I have felt very undermotivated this past week because of personal things (love is possibly the biggest obstruction to earning an income online!).

I’ve tried to do little things like take regular breaks from the internet and get out into the big wide world.

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Deneil Merritt August 7, 2010 at 9:37 pm

How often you take breaks and how long are the breaks?

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Paul B August 7, 2010 at 8:14 am

I know it’s easier said than done but drop everything for a week. Pretend you are on holiday and just let things run themself. Chillax, get some exercise and you’ll come back refreshed.

Working for yourself doesn’t mean not having a break from time to time, even when money is tight and the shit is hitting the fan just walking away can give a whole new perspective when it’s time to rock and roll again.

Oh and women are mental, all of them.

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Deneil Merritt August 7, 2010 at 10:24 pm

Paul that will be harder than you know. Well you might know. I am totally addicted to my laptop. Back when I had my macbook I wouldn’t leave home without it. Now I don’t do that anymore but still a week is like forever.

True, I do over work myself at times but I take small breaks from time to time. I guess I just haven’t taken enough breaks to keep things balance.

lol @ women are mental

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Mitch August 8, 2010 at 12:43 am

Suffice it to say, the two events, your laziness and the ex-girlfriend thing, are related. You’ve gotten yourself into a circle that I’ve seen before, and the lack of enough fundage to allow you to get away from it all messes stuff up.

I could give you some pointers, but you’re not going to listen to them anyway because guys never do when they’re in this state of mind. So I’ll just say this; we’ve all been through something similar in our lives, especially if we live long enough, and you still see us surviving. That means it doesn’t last forever, but it will last long enough for you to decide one day that enough is enough and you’re going to start doing things that are going to bring you happiness. I know this because that’s how the rest of us got back into the game of life.

So, I support you like a little brother and know that you’ll be fine when you’re ready to be fine. :-)

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Deneil Merritt August 8, 2010 at 4:15 am

You right, I put myself into this circle I just can’t seem to get out of. I think a little success and a break will change things around. Thank you for your support Mitch.

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Moorpark Real Estate August 10, 2010 at 6:45 am

I think for relaxation you can make a small trip or have some fun with your family. It will definitely rejuvenate yourself. All you need just make a move.

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